I’ve had a bit of a breakthrough surrounding my noise sensitivity this past weekend. After spending the past two weeks pretty much constantly on edge, I started doing some research and did some reading on hyperarousal due to PTSD. It suddenly clicked that I have every reason to be triggered by bass and similar low frequency noises. So now that I better understand the source of the trigger, it becomes a matter of identifying and coping.
The main triggers I’m dealing with right now
- the heating unit on the roof next door (it’s been snowing so this is a major trigger right now, this one keeps me awake at night)
- bass from cars around town (luckily this isn’t too bad since bass is my primary trigger)
- footsteps from others living in my building (this one wakes me up early in the morning and often has a startling effect throughout the day)
- The washer and dryer in our building. (Luckily it’s only shared by two apartments but that still makes for a lot of laundry that has to be done)
- And finally the one that really impacts our life, the sound of my husband typing. (He makes our entire living writing and we essentially live in a studio so this is a huge problem)
Ways I’m coping
- My primary means of coping right now is headphones with music during the day and Simply Noise on surround sound along with the Just Noise app through headphones at night.
- My Smashbook
- A strain of MMJ called Cheese
- Repeating the mantra “You are completely safe.”
- Cuddling with Rob also really helps me feel safe so long as it’s not one of those times when I automatically shy away from touch.
- Drawing zentangles, mandalas and my Sunshine Girls
Fight or Flight
Every time I’ve delt with this in the past, my instinct has always been to run away. We’ve moved more times than I would like to admit trying to get away from my triggering noises. That’s not an option this time. I have to learn to cope and hopefully ultimately overcome the triggers instead of running away from them. I’ve spent many years in fight or flight mode and have always naturally fled. Now I have no choice, I have to fight.